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Saturday, May 17, 2008 my life is messed up
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i'm not getting enough sleep every single day.
i sleep at like 4AM then i tend to sleep in to my weekends.
or on school days i have to sleep at like 11 and never finish my HW.
so then i sleep in and always miss the first couple of classes or i sleep in class.
the first semester i never missed any class or any school day, but how about now?
i've missed about half of the semester already.
my grades are poorly dropping and my friends are leaving me; saying i'm different then before.
such as: bad grades, more quiet, less smile, skipping school
but it isn't my fucking fault.
it's my bad parents fucking fault.
all they think about is money.
i totally agree that money can sometimes give people happiness or what ever needs you want.
but it can never make someone feel secure or have the warmth of a family anymore.
i mean ever since they got addicted to gambling, i ask for whatever i want and get it.
but they spend less and less time with their kids.
and i being the eldest have to take care of them until what?
5-6 in the morning.
or whenever they lose their money, they come home all grumpy and crap and take out their anger on me.
what the fuck. =.=
that's why i love my beautiful grandma more. ^^

but i'm freaking serious that my life is messed up.
i don't even have a friend in school now.
i just eat by myself at lunch and always be the one with no partner when we do activities in english.
but i'll cope with that, since my life is going to stay like this. =S
nothing i can do. X.X

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love is complicated.

^read the three words above.

really.
both are alike
both have the same type of personality
both are the person i love.
and lastly both are friends
i don't want to do anything to harm their friendship =.=



love is complicated!

Wishlist

* Fahrenheit's album
* DBSK's Mirotic
* Fahrenheit stuff
* Tablet
* a Vacation

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